My whole body would burn. I wondered if my toes would fall off.
I needed to stop. I couldn’t. I had to go on.
My arms ached. My head would spin. My feet cramped up.
I couldn’t put my arms down; she would yell.
I couldn’t stop turning; she would scream.
I couldn’t stop pointing my feet; she would shout.
I couldn’t keep up; she didn’t notice.
Slowly I realized where I was. My mind wandered as I peered through the windows to stare at the pointe class warm up. I watched them do frappes on pointe. I watched their feet beat back and forth as they did petit battement at the bar. I slowly looked away. My eyes flicked back and forth from the girls, stringent in their pointe shoes and buns, to the 11 of us―black leotards, black tights, bare feet, pony tails flowing freely, laughing without a care.
As the 11 of us walked from the most commodious studio to the least, I realized how lucky I am. I had been tenaciously holding onto a dream of getting back on pointe. I had ignored everything else.
I smiled as I felt a weight lift off my shoulders.
In the back of my mind I still wish...
I wish to be sugarplum fairy. I wish to wear a tutu and fly across the stage.
I wish to perform at the opera house of The Kennedy Center...
I will get there someday. Not on pointe but with my bare feet. I won’t fly. I will soar.
I will be free. I will not look back.
Ballet will be there for me; maybe one day I’ll go back.
But for now I will remember.
~ Jodie K.
love this- CB
ReplyDeletethis is really good. it's really descriptive- MM
ReplyDeleteIt is very intense and I like the fragmented sentences.
ReplyDeleteThe transition at the beginning from sad to empowered is really great!
ReplyDeleteI love how you have the repetion at the end. Good job hodia
ReplyDeleteThis is really good.I really liked the beginning. It made you want to read more.
ReplyDeleteThis was a very good story. It was very powerful. :):):):):):)
ReplyDeleteI feel like this story is written about you but also about other dancers. Nice job Jodie!!
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I loved this! This story is very descriptive and easy to connect to. Even though I do not do dance I found ways to connect it to my personal experiences. I especially loved this because it was very interesting to see what dancers physically and mentally go through.
ReplyDeleteAmazing job, very deep.
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